March 4, 2004

Why should we care?

So who is this girl,

With a tear escaping her eye?
We don't think she matters,

So we'll just pass her by.

Why should we care if she cries for hours?

It's not like her grave will get any flowers.

She doesn't mean anything,

Why should we notice?

Even when she puts the gun in her mouth,

Her eyes out of focus.

When she's gone life won't change,

We'll ignore the fact we treated her,

like she had the disease of the new age.

An ignored life, gone to waste.

All because she had a different taste.

Not one person will notice her absence.

"Life hasn't changed since."

No one will complain.

Without her, life will be the same.

-AXU.

May 10, 2004

The Girl I never Knew.

Tribute to a girl I never knew.

Who was young, beautiful and true. 

In all of the hearts of all around,

The loss of her turned the world up side down.

Loved by all, forgotten by none

The memory of her increases,

With every rising of the sun.

But the heartbreak never ceases,

And we find ourselves picking up our peices,

Tribute to a girl I never knew,

If only I the privelidge of knowing her,

Before she flew.

She will always be missed,

And of the best things, we shall reminisce

My tribute to the girl I never knew,

My heart goes out to you..

-AXU.

May 5, 2004

Helpless.

Tonight was so wonderful, I couldn't believe,

You were so beautiful, at times I forgot to breathe.

We held each other under the stars,

After you told me of your pain in the car,

Your hatred of spring, for all the occasions it brings,

So painful to you I could feel it from a far.

So powerful it was, enough to leave a scar.

The love you have for her is the most beautiful thing I've seen,

You can easily tell she was the best human being,

I wish I could help you, some how make it easier,

But there couldn't be anything, not that I can manage,

If I tried to help, I fear I'd just inflict more damage,

You didn't deserve this, it isn't fair,

Why ever this happened, I don't care.

It's wrong, and this heartache you don't deserve,

I wish this long road of misery would send you a curve,

To see you like this is the worst form of murder,

If I feel this bad, I couldn't imagine what you feel,

But however bad, i want you to know, I'll be there to help you deal,

Not sure what to say, not sure how to say it,

"I'm sorry" isn't good enough, and I'm sure it's said too much,

Oh if only words were not more powerful than the touch,

You have to suffer the spring year after year,

I wish i could hold you to be able to wipe away each tear,

Your pain is so vivid, it hurts me like it was originally mine,

But I realize it's not, and still end up crying,

To see you in pain, breaks up my heart,

And seeing your eyes verge like they did tears me apart,

You sometimes tell me a memory here and there,

And all I can do is simply nod and somehow show I care,

Fighting back the sorrow and tears I have store for this.

I wish I could do something, where you could escape to bliss,

The night even seemed full of sorrow,

The stars weren't as radiant, and the moon had no light to borrow,

We had the longest goodbye I had ever spent,

You made my day perfect, you made my day whole,

You fixed to horrors the day, you made me un bent,

Just a look from your eyes, gave me such a sense of control,

I wanted to hold you forever, if only circumstances would allow,

The look in your eyes, the hiding misery hid behind wisps of your hair,

I closed my eyes when our lips met, and then it was no longer there,

You hide it well, much better than I, but my burden is light, unlike yours,

And I tried to smile after you hid it, but knowing it was there gave my heart sores,

Your facade holds up, but since you open up to me I know,

It really upsets me that I had to go,

I would have done anything you needed,

To comfort you, or hold you all night if you pleaded,

I hate being helpless, what is there to do?

I don't know, name it. I'd do anything for you.

Tonight, I lost all of my energy, I went limp in your arms,

But you caught me and held me, and assured me of so in alarm,

You laid me down on the pavement,

As stars blotted my vision, that varied in shapes and color,

The look on your face, made me fake a smile,

I had to let you know, I'd be okay for just a while,

I was down a few minutes, and then I could pretend,

I think I could fake this until the end,

The night was coming to a close, and we had interruptions,

We had the most akward forms of distractions,

We were unsure of how ot portray our reactions,

There must have been a conspirator faction

But the time was flying, and I had been on the verge of crying,

And we a long goodbye, the only way to let go of one another was to pry,

I didn't want to go, i didn't want to leave,

Being without you is like taking the air that I breathe,

All I wanted was to hold you, and never let go,

But in was inevetable, so I couldn't stay. No.

I gave you one last squeeze, And then he had to go.

So we left each other in the dim of the pumpkin moon,

It's glow wasn't seen very well, and  it was low to the horizon,

We left knowing we wouldn't see each other until  two days' after noon.

So on the way home, I shed my tears, for all of your missed years,

I hate being useless and being so unhelpful,

I want to take it all from you,

I feel so helpless just standing aside, watching you suffer,

I love you so much, I'd do anything to help you through

But I am helpless, so helpless in helping you..

-AXU.